Since my birth as a human being I had to play many roles in life. Each and every role had its own shape, style and way of living. Not every bit that I played to make that part of life successful was real and free from masquerade. If you think deeply for a moment you will also realize that you had to pretend at different stages of your life to become what you are not. It may be forceful or self motivated, either situation demanded it or it was intended to fulfil someone’s whims. Whatever may be it but that
facade made us different from what we actually are.
I want to break free that facade and emerge as a true human being. This New Year will be challenging for me as that would mean breaking the smokescreen and transpiring as a new person. A person who may seem to be different in the eyes of society, a different entity as the world knows me to be and the transformed version which is only made known to my own being.
It will take time for me to completely accomplish this and become obvious. I have to put in a lot of effort and patience. I need the world to understand me and realize my goal. The world may reject me at the first appearance and
force me to go back to my old ways but I need strong determination to fight with this so called wedge and with growing time I will be able to be successful. It will be a long process to push away the block and move ahead with my plan of a transformation from the unreal to the real self.
This can also prove harmful for me as those who made me transform to what I am will never accept it to take place. I have to convince them and myself. My motivation and self-will may be hammered at every stage of this transformation but I have to put up with it and go ahead. I hope by the next year I will be able to come out of this disguise and make my real presence felt among all.
This is definitely a hard and dangerous resolution for any human being as we have grown up with this over the years and have got habituated with this way of life. It takes a lot of determination to emerge as a true and real person but nothing is impossible and if we strive we can always succeed.
